Friday, August 22, 2014

14 Weeks: Check In

How far along: 14 weeks, 2 days

Total weight gain: Last time it was 4 pounds, I'm sure it's more now.  My belly has gotten bigger in the last week.

Maternity clothes: Today I am officially wearing Mom jeans...or maternity jeans to be more specific.  And they are COMFY!

Sleep:  Usually about 8 hours.  I wish I could get 10.

Best moment of this week: Not a specific moment, but I'm thankful that my morning sickness is getting a little better.  Oh!  I did get to have dinner with an old friend who is due in November, so I got to chat about babies all night long!

Miss anything: Nothing really.  I'm still not jazzed about food yet.

Size of babies: Lemons


Food cravings/aversions: No real cravings yet.  I still have many aversions.  Things I used to love eating no longer taste amazing to me.

Anything making you queasy or sick: I get queasy or sick every  morning still.  Sometimes just thinking about something gross makes me start gagging, even if it's not right in front of me.  That said, I am no longer sick all day like I was for the first 12 weeks, and I'm taking that as an encouraging sign that this stage is almost past me.

Have you started to show yet: Yes! I feel my belly growing by the day.

Gender: No idea.  I saw two twin boys today at the coffee shop though and wondered how the heck we'll be able to handle it if they're both boys! :)

Labor signs: Thank God, no.

Belly button in or out: In!

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or moody most of the time: Moody this week.

Looking forward to: My next appointment with the midwife on 9/2, and my nephew's birthday party tomorrow.

Monday, August 18, 2014

To my regular readers, or those of you who just stumbled upon my blog, please ignore this message and read the posts below this one.

This is a message someone I asked not to contact me again.  You know who you are.  Stop reading this blog.  Do not ever contact me again.  If you do contact me, I will contact the police and tell them that you are harassing me and have been for almost 10 years.  You are right, I did block you from Facebook and I'm not sure how you got through recently.  If it happens again, the police will know about that too.

If I see you coming to this blog again, I will shut it down.  And that will be very heartbreaking for me because I've had it for almost 10 years.  So please, just move on and leave me alone.

Dear Wine

I miss you.  That is all.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

13 Weeks


Tomorrow I'll be 13 weeks pregnant which will officially bring me into my 2nd trimester.  Already.  It's crazy how time has flown by.  And truthfully, even though I have morning sickness and my belly is growing (and I no longer fit into most of my clothes) it's still so unbelievable.

From 7-9 weeks I was taking pictures of my belly.  But because it was so early, there really wasn't a change.  At week 9 there was a little change, but even still, it was little.  However, over the last couple of weeks my belly has really popped and can visibly be seen by anyone who knows me.

I say that because I'm a plus size girl, and so my belly is never completely flat.  And to outsiders, I probably just look fatter than normal.  Which kinds of stinks, but you know what?  I don't care.  My babies are in there and that's the reason I'm growing.  And I'm so happy that it's begun.  Here is my week 13 picture:



It's amazing what pregnancy has done for my body image already.  Last week when we were taking our announcement photos, I noticed myself subconsciously trying to suck in my belly when the photos were about to be shot.  When I realized this, I remembered that my belly, for one thing, can't be sucked in anymore, but also that it is growing because of babies.  And it's now acceptable in societies eyes for me to have a belly. And I felt better about it then.

Which is sad.  Why aren't I-and thousands of other beautiful plus sized women-allowed to feel beautiful when we are without child?  And more importantly, why do I allow society to dictate how I feel about myself?  I really hope that I can remember this wisdom in a year.

Monday, August 11, 2014

This Is Pregnancy

Some days I can set up an entire campsite all by myself. I even chopped some wood and built the fire:





Other days my feet look like this-which is very swollen for me:


Let the swelling fun begin, I guess!  (Even my hands are swollen today.) :(  I'm just on the cusp of my 2nd trimester (Wednesday.)

Relief

My updated Facebook header.  It was originally just the picture on the left from our wedding day, but I thought it would be cute to update it with the similar picture from our announcement.  Love it.

It's official, I'm pregnant with twins.  We've known this all along, of course, but now it's really official because last night we posted it on Facebook.  And what a relief it is, I'll tell you.  That's a HARD secret to keep!  And of course we're so excited at the response.  Everyone is so excited for us and it is so wonderful to be able to share this with everyone we know. 

The majority of the people who know are very surprised-they didn't think that we'd ever have children.  In fact, so much so, that they never even really asked us if we were having children because they already knew we weren't.  Which actually was quite nice, considering the process we went through.  Having constant questions would no doubt have made the infertility journey more stressful.  I'm so happy we kept it a secret until it was a success. 

Now I can being the process of building a registry.  We'll probably end up having two showers and they'll probably be earlier than normal pregnancies because I'm due in February.  Normally December would be the perfect time for a shower, pregnancy-wise, but because of the holidays and the snow, earlier is better.  So I'll create some registries and B1 and I can have some fun with the scanning gun!!  I can't wait.  It's so fun to plan stuff.  Although...we won't know what the sexes are until October...so we should really wait until then.  Boo!



Wednesday, August 06, 2014

12 Weeks; The Announcement

This weekend B1 and I will be telling our family and closest friends about our exciting news in person and via telephone.  Once they are all in the know, we'll be sending (via Paperless Post) and posting (via Facebook) the following so that the rest of our family and friends will have the news:


We're so excited that we can finally tell everyone!  It's getting harder and harder to keep our secret, especially because I'm starting to show.  Yes, it mostly looks like I"m just getting fatter, but my belly is growing nonetheless!  I won't be able to hide it much longer, and thank God we don't have to.

I had my first appointment with my OB on Monday and everything went very well.  I really like the team we're assembled to help us through this journey.  The nurse midwife is extremely down to earth and friendly-and not at all earthy crunchy-and the OB is also very approachable.  She checked everything out and looked at the babies with an ultrasound (sadly no pictures this time).  They actually LOOK like babies now!  It's amazing.  The picture above was taken at around 6 or 7 weeks, so they don't really look like anything but baby beans.  But now?  Wow...babies!  I still can't believe it.

One of the babies was a little wiggle worm-it wouldn't stop moving!  Around and around, scrunching it's little body up and down.  It was quite funny.  Especially because the other baby appeared to be sound asleep with its back to its sibling.  The funniest part about this though is that it's EXACTLY like B1 and I when we sleep.  I move and move and squirm all night and poor B1 is just on his side of the bed sleeping away.  It'll be funny to see if this pattern continues.

Both hearts were beating strong and they appear to be growing well.  Today they are the size of plums.  We find out the gender of the babies on October 2nd, as long as they cooperate!

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Re-Entry

Have you ever seen a (newly-yesterday was my birthday!) 38-year old pregnant (with twins) lady the day she comes back from an 11-day vacation?  It's not pretty.

Today's reentry to work has been ROUGH.  Not only am I exhausted from all of the fun things we did over vacation, but I also haven't had caffeine in months.  Months.  It's pretty brutal.

So last week we sailed to Gloucester for 3 days and then we sailed back to Boston.  While it was mostly fun (I got sick on Monday and pretty much had to stay in bed the whole day), it was also tiring.  We always get sucked into the romanticism of sailing for vacation and I think we forget how tiring it is.  7-9 hours on the open sea, no one around, not much land...it gets very boring.  Even though we love being on the water and love traveling, it just gets old after about 5 hours.  We want to BE THERE already, ya know?  Anyway, we came back after sailing (no nausea for me-yay!) and stayed in a hotel just outside of Boston.  Just to stay in a hotel.  We played some mini golf, ate Japanese food and relaxed.  It was actually really great.  Then this weekend my 12 year old niece and our 11 year old God-daughter came for the weekend.  Which was fun, but MAN-I was ready for some QUIET by the end of the weekend.  Thank God we had yesterday off.  We relaxed and slept in and then got up for a very late breakfast.  Then did nothing until dinner when we got dressed up and ate lots of yummy tapas.

But still, I'm exhausted.  I didn't sleep very well last night and without coffee, I'm functioning at a very low level right now...

I need a vacation!


Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I'm Pregnant With Twins

I just ordered two pair of these shoes:


Because you know, they're adorable.  But also because we need them for our pregnancy announcement, which we'll be sending out the first week of August.  Via email and Facebook...it will involve our feet in our boat shoes, along with two sets of baby boat shoes.  On our dock...possibly with the city behind us, if we can find the perfect spot.

I'm pretty excited about it.  Marking the end of my 1st trimester is cause enough for celebration, but being able to actually tell people in our lives that we're having a baby two babies is super exciting.  I'm looking forward to people knowing I'm having twins instead of them thinking I'm just getting a little fatter than I already am.

There will actually be two announcements.  One will be normal and that will be the one I'll use, and one will say, "We're gonna need a bigger boat" and that will be the one B1 uses.  I hate that quote and hate that I'll probably hear it 1000 times now that we're having twins.

"Oh, really?  Twins?!  That's great-you're gonna need a bigger boat!"  Har, har, har...

(I don't know why I hate it so much...I just do.  And pregnancy hormones make me hate it more!)

Anyway...

Tomorrow I hit the 9 week mark which means I'm SO CLOSE to the 2nd trimester (13 weeks).  They say I'll feel better then, and I'll be so angry if they're lying! :)  This has been a tough week and a half for me.  I'm sick all of the time and am exhausted but can't get to sleep early.  I can't eat much and am rarely hungry.  And apparently I don't like kiwi anymore, because I couldn't swallow it the other day.  But I love kiwi.  Pregnant Mags?  Not so much.

Such is life when you're pregnant with twins!

(Yes, I'm saying that a lot...I'm trying to get used to it!)